In My Father's House

I had a trip planned to visit my father. Before leaving for the trip, I paid all of my bills to ensure that my money went where it was supposed to and to keep me from spending money on items that were not a priority in my budget. After paying my bills, I didn't have as much money as I wanted to have for personal spending, especially since I was going out of town. I thought about moving some money from my savings account, which I don't like doing unless it is necessary. I knew I would get paid again while I was out of town, so there were just a few days when I felt like my cash would be low.

I was planning all of this out with my calendar when something in my mind clicked and I felt at ease. I said to myself, I am going to my father's house, I don't need any money. At that moment I felt a total peace and my worries ceased. I knew that at my father's house, everything would be provided free of charge. I had a place to sleep, and all of my meals were covered. I didn't need anything else.

It is really a resting place when I visit my father because the thought of my provision goes out the window for a few days and I feel peace in his presence. I don't even have to think about driving. He usually takes me to all the places that I want to go. It's a small town so that usually just includes a trip to Walmart or to check out the deals at the discount store Dirt Cheap. We enjoy spending time together.

As I was thinking about how I was comfortable leaving my house without my finances being a factor, I began to think about my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I thought to myself, this is the relationship I'm supposed to have with God. To have faith that he will make a way in the places where I fall short.

There are several times God has instructed me to just rest. My response is rest and do what? I always think that I must have a role in the process. I think the answer is not to rest and do, but to rest and be. Rest and be a daughter. I have no problem resting in my natural father's provision. I see it as my right as his daughter. I don't feel I have to earn it, but I do have to get to where he is. That provision and rest come with being in a close relationship and fully accepting my role as a daughter. If I do not see myself in the position of daughter, I will not partake in what is freely mine. With my natural father, the provision ceases when I leave his presence and return to my home. While that is a temporary rest, God has provided a rest for me as a daughter that will not cease as long as I have faith and remain close to him. Everything that I will need, He has already provided. I just need to enter in.

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